Everything is not perfectly everything

You know what so annoying about life, its that you cant have everything, which is so unfair. Whats wrong in getting everything that you want. Some people... ok ....just Me...... thinks that I deserve to have everything, I have been a very good person, and therefore I must be entitled to have everything. This does not make me a spoilt or an in grate . I want everything good in life not venus and mars to be perfectly aligned.

Fine..... fine if I cant have everything then Why oh way cant everything I have be perfect, maybe I can live without somethings,if what I already had was perfect. No flaws in anything that I had. I would be so perfectly content with the perfection of what I perfectly own.

If I can't have everything and everything I have isnt going to be perfect then...........................

Why cant I be perfect... and do things perfectly.. I hate making mistakes, especially when I have taken major efforts in not making mistakes, and then someone points out a mistake...... I wanna just scream....... actually just growl and give out a royal roar........ ofcourse I would rather turn back time not make the mistake and then I would be like you know.... happy. Why is that the harder I try for perfection the more mistakes I make. I wanna just kick myself. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR................ .............. Why cant I do things perfectly.....................why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why............. Times like these I wish the earth would open up and swallow me.
You learn only thru mistakes... people tell me ... bah!! I say............................ The only thing ve learnt... is that I cant do anything right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Cant have everything......
Cant have perfection......
Cant be perfect......

Oh beautiful life.................................. I thinketh that it is the pursuit that makes it beautiful........ If it so-eth... I think I will screameth.

Sane warped people

I have met a few people who read but I cant say that they are well read people, which is strange as they have read all the great classics and all the "must reads" of books of our time or they have read all the intellectual books . But the knowledge and finesse doesn't stream out of them as it should be. The reason behind this is that either they have not imbibed the book and sought to understand the author's writing and were unable to form an insightful opinion. The other type of read but not well read are those that they have read so many intellectual books which they have not fully understood (but they live in the illusion that they have), they take that and mix it with their own thought off warped philosophy and attempt an opinion which sounds to philosophically pretentious to me.

The later is what happens when people have no strong believes in one thing which will steady their thought life. When people know themselves and know what they believe in then,when reading other people's philosophies they will have the option to reject or accept. But when one is unsure of who they are or what they believe in or what they are looking for, they tend not to take the philosophy as a whole, just take what they like to hear. All that plus their own philosophy adds up to their warped thinking.

Sane as these people are in all medical terms, in terms of what is right and wrong (socially and morally) they are idiot savants. How can one help correct this. Is it a possibility? They live in the illusion of their own so called "great thinking and philosophy" and it is so subtle it has hard to point it out. One has to listen to them speak alot to realise that their thinking is "a little crrraaazy". A good part of me thinks that one can never tell a sane warped person that they are what they are because they have lived in that so called "intellectual bubble" for so long that they will not like it if you start poking it. They also are very defensive about their philosophies they have absolute conviction in their made up believes. I understand their defense, its because they are scared that we sane non warped people will tell them something that will shatter their bubble and they will have to face REAL life philosphies.

If you ever meet a sane warped person, all you can do is pray for them or run away from them.


OH BTW, previous blog got deleted, cos it was baring too much of my soul.