Valentine's Day

One year ago I decided to seriously look for love, and I am sorry to report that one year later, I still haven't found it.

So here I am one more Valentine's day and all alone. I am complete believer in Valentine's day. People call it commercialism but for me it will always be a reason to celebrate love. A dedicated day just for loving that someone special.

There is a song called "Two is better than one" and every time I hear that song I think I am just one. At least I am one- a whole number and a whole-well rounded person [in all senses :)]. Thankfully not a half and waiting for someone to come and make me whole.

Talking about wholes and ones. I realised that I want another one to make it 1+1. I do not me plus half or me plus one and a half. Me just wants a plus one.

Maybe in the year of my silver jubilee I will have a plus one.

Oh Universe, a small footnote to you, kindly send someone who will love me the way I want to be loved. Any lesser than that will be a massive waste of your energies and a colossal waste of my time.


XOXO
Sang

Biblical Family

Last week my dad asked my mother and me , to tell him a good example of a family from the bible. After our two minute mental search through the bible, we found that there were no perfect families in the bible. Its strange isnt it.... a book that is so full of wisdom and has some words of encouragement for every situation in life, that one could possibly think off, has not added an example of "a perfect family".

Pondered this thought over some days and realised that, maybe god didnt put an example of a perfect family as there isnt any. Maybe in all his infinite wisdom knew that, its not possible. Maybe he knew that as individuals we fall and fail so many times, that if there was a family comparison, we would have crumbled and crumpled under that pressure.

We have to compare our lives with Jesus, and falling short would be an understatement of enormous magnitude. But yet we run the race and fight the good fight. We are to put the yoke of guilt, shame, sin onto the cross, but we seldom do it fully, we always keep a little of all of that within us, so that we dont feel guilty about not feeling guilty. This slows us down, frustrates us, and we end up putting alot of pressure on ourselves. Now all that, we feel when we fall short of the glory as Individuals, imagine if we knew we failed as a family, .

As a family what would define failure (maybe divorce, but its the failure of marriage/relationship.. I dont know) is it a kid rebelling?kid marrying a person from another caste, creed, country??? not listening to parents??? what constitutes a failed family? Who decides whether the family is a success or a failure??Non-doting parents??? Parents who are semi-jailers???

Random thoughts on these...

Its amazing that the bible talks about curses and blessings going to be passed on from generation to generation.Eve's disobedience and Abraham's mistake.


Families are punished and families are blessed in the bible.

Individuals were more focused on than families (David, Abraham, Joseph, Moses, Ruth, Esther)

But god said Be fruitful and multiply, have a companion.......

Special chapter on how to raise a family is not there

But how to treat Husband, wife, child are stated....


Thats what I love about my god, it is that he has given freedom to raise a family as we like, with simple adherence to rules like "love her/him" "dont anger child" "child honor parents", in such simplicity he's put boundary lines as well as immense space to raise a family,


My god, is beyond words... only he can come up with concepts such as grace, mercy... love and family.... Think about it, without such concepts... what would our world be like. To think the creator has all of it and we have barely ventured or fathomed its awesomeness.

Spotted: Romance and Me

I did I did.... I did spot romance not once but twice on the same day in less than 4 hours... barf!!!!.. ok so am barfing out of jealousy.....How do these people met their significant other??? Is there some place.. that I dont know about... some class I was supposed to take but didnt.......

It was such a paradoxical situation... I wanted them to tell me more, about their romance... what he said- she said, what he did- what she did.....How they waited for each other... how they wanted each other and at the same time, I felt like saying "Shut it, already, we know that you've got someone to love you... one more line and it will be bragging"

As I trudged back home I thought about all the things I wanted... correction.. needed....

In relationships, I have heard that compromising is the biggest thing you have to do. My question/s is or are what do you compromise? How much do you compromise ? Is there anything known as too much compromise? Is everything that you gain, worth the compromise?Why am I compromising? Is compromising in dutch or in turns.. if I compromise for this will you compromise for the next?

In the middle of the road, a voice echoed in my head "Remember 5 condition". Then the above questions came with a note saying refer to "5 conditions". My mind started reeling with the coulda, woulda shouldas..............

Should I------- compromise or set lower standards?

Could I ?

Would I?

Then my dear universe, I realised I couldnt........ I wont for too long even if I did................... and dear universe.... please dont let me think I should.


xoxoxoxo
sang

Love Stoned

Love is a many splendored thing. My entire monday morning has flown by with this sentence running through my brain. Love is a many splendored thing. Love is a many splendored thing. Splendor, a word I havent heard in a very long time and today I am saying it over and over again. Splendor. Splendor. I have also been chanting love love.... I think in times to come dear universe, you will be receiving a lot of posts about love and romance.

Since I have kept my eyes open for love and romance. I have found it. Not just in movies and books. But around me. I saw my grandmother, who in her younger years was romanced, by my grandfather. Years after his death she met another man and in their old age, still have love. Both sitting endlessly for a doctor's appointment and like wise. Seeing my parents, being all silly and playful , literally running around the house. Seems a little immature, but also seems very loving... and just ......being so happy. Even my generation, I saw a friend, who would do anything for his girl, she just has to pout or screw up her forehead and he's soft putty in her hands.

The thing about love is, it doesnt have to be grand gestures, it doesnt have to be flying across the Atlantic ocean or chasing behind a taxi or petal laced path. Like life, in love maybe its the small things. I say this after lots of research and zero experience. That love does exist, in real life, people have loved someone their entire lives and still experience the thrills of it even after decades and decades of it later. When they were asked what they love about their partner. None of it was.. oh we went on a carriage ride in a moonlit night, or she made the most beautiful candlelight dinner, which was... yada yada.............. They love and remember .. things like, 'when she sits next to me and falls asleep', that makes me feel like such a man... or the way she itemizes everything on the shelf. The way he has to coffee before doing anything else, when she smiled ... and even now when she smiles..their are butterflies in my stomach. All these were after decades of being in love.

Grand gestures are great, but its the many a small and splendored things.............. Oh universe, I sound completely love sick, and the cupid hasnt even struck. I understand why people go looking for love. Because its a beautiful thing, its like a scenic picture, you know its beautiful. But it'll only be truly breath taking when you are actually there. When you are actually at that place. I know love will be absolutely amazing.


Universe....... am I setting myself up for massive disappointment? or am I just being normal and waiting for that many splendored thing?


xxx
Sang